Out of all the people we met in our lives we tend to discover a lot of things about us. They are good avenues to get to know you and to unleash the real you. Why do we need them?
God ensures us that we will never be alone and we meet others to either make or break us. I was betrayed several times, but one thing I’m fearful for, when it happens over and over again by different people through different situations. Though, I know how to walk away from it but I’m always caught stuck at the wreck havoc of emotional rip current of life. “Even my close friend in whom I trusted, Who ate my bread, Has lifted up his heel against me.” Psalm 41:9
One thing I learnt about myself in dealing with other people, is that a lot of them misunderstood my actions and thoughts. This situations would leave questions in my mind such as; Why do I still need to bother myself thinking about others? or Why do I need to consider other people’s opinion? Well, It is an innate response as we think about our ideal self rather than our real self. Most of the time I tend to compare myself with the successes and achievements of other people, I tend to follow other people’s path and disregard my own. I forgot that each of us has different life timelines yet why do I still depend on them at times.
Recently, as I went out my comfort zone, I learnt to view the world as a dark forest with pack of wolves. Wolves who likes to threaten and stab you behind. In the dark night, they like to hunt people who are hopeless, depress and tend to disregard your feelings in the middle of the chaotic world we live in. They are selfish and likes to give and take all the negativity of this world. I met a lot of this people and it scares me meeting more of them. I wonder how do they survive eating each others flesh and deceiving each other. Showing most of themselves in social medias, pretending to be fine, be an authoritative as they could and also loves to add fuel in the fire which really causes a lot of inconvenience and chaos to anyone. But wait!! Everyday I am getting too focus on the people and scary wolves around me yet I forgot about myself.
As the master of our life says “The earth is the LORD’S, and all it contains, The world, and those who dwell in it.” Psalm 24:1. We don’t own anything in this world and also we don’t owe the world. Whatever we do and say, we are responsible of our own actions. Though I was lost yet found, I know in my heart the Shepherd won’t just leave me with this pack of wolves. Sometimes ignoring, disregarding and neglecting others would be helpful to ease our worries away. Being a people’s person I learnt to restrain from opening myself to others. I was reminded with the verse Psalm 118:8
“It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in man”
Trusting other people and giving your 101% to them won’t help resolve any of our problems, it would rather add worries and distress to our lives. Learning from dealing with people made a big difference in my life. For others who misunderstood me, I just can’t be bothered anymore. The world is full of wolves pretending to be a sheep in the eyes of the Shepherd yet the fact that we cannot deceive him comforts me.
Funny how I ended up learning things while I was surrounded with wolves. I am learning to stay connected and maintain a good relationship with my Shepherd wherever I go. Amidst this life trouble and trust issues it really matters on how and when we cry for help whenever we are lost. I am learning to surrender everything whatever it may be and focus on strengthening my faith towards him. Even if I’m lost I know he will go looking for me wherever it may.be as long as I put my trust in him. My heart is now at peace knowing that his promises and ways are true..